In March this year I blogged “Exist in photos for your children” after watching Sue Bryce, and got more than I bargained for in the process.
As a women’s glamour photographer I am always behind the lens, taking the shots and guiding women in their posing to get those amazing shots and to help make them feel good about themselves. Last weekend I chose, a little reluctantly, to put myself in their situation and get in front of the lens.
A photographer and good friend of mine, Vikki, who runs La Dee Dah Portraits agreed to “shoot me”. Vikki creates these beautiful classic Hollywood glamour style portraits and I really love her work and wanted a photo of me like this. For those who know me personally know I have lots of internal struggles including weight and self love, so this was extremely nerve raking, but remembering Sue’s comments from March I was determined to push through.
Last Saturday, amongst a group of good friends (who just also happen to be photographers) I got my glam on, with makeup and pampering by Tami of Dr Dread. Then it was time for Vikki to take over – Wow getting in front of the camera is hard and those poses – yep ok I get it now. The experience was daunting, I was so nervous every time the camera came up I froze. In my head I was trying to get the pose down and that just made Vikki’s job a whole lot harder, it was hard to relax and be guided and give that trust to someone else.
Vikki had a tough job. I was not an easy “client” but in the end she was able to break down the barriers and get some beautiful photos.
Now viewing the photos is a whole other realisation, initial thoughts that run through are, ‘oh my – is my face really that round’, but then something happens and you overlook all the imperfections and just take in the beauty, of yourself. For me I never realised how beautiful my eyes, actually seemed to smile. It took these photos to show me that.
I now know how my clients feel and I appreciate the experience more. The lesson is to share that trust and to find within yourself the beauty that we all have. “Be your own kind of Beautiful”. Not just a phrase, but a way of thought. Be proud of who you are, always.
Thank you Vikki for your time, patience and the beautiful photos. I am forever grateful. x
Until next week.